Slowing Down

Slowing down enough to let the words

move from my brain to my hand

taking a breath between thoughts

this pause that doesn’t really exist

 

Feeling out of practice with keeping a schedule

a lack of discipline that I can’t allow

The chaos of my freedom breeds hedonism

The irony of  a Zen hedonist does not escape me

 

In these times of settling, I won’t

in these times of seeking relief, I won’t

in the times of waiting for inevitability, I won’t

 

Feeling out of practice with keeping my mouth shut

a lack of tact and compassion I can’t allow.

Disillusioned with freedom, security breeds contempt

The irony of being free, but not safe, or vice versa

does not escape me.

 

Slowing down enough to let my thoughts come one at a time.

Keeping some space between my heart and my mind

taking a breath between words

this moment is all that exists.

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One thought on “Slowing Down

  1. blockquote, div.yahoo_quoted { margin-left: 0 !important; border-left:1px #715FFA solid !important; padding-left:1ex !important; background-color:white !important; } Once again I read your words which brings  connection for me. I also finally read On Over thinking, which I loved. I have been reading Pema Chodron, Living Beautifully with uncertainty and change, for well over a year. I have yet to finish.  Connecting with nature is what I’ve been lacking for months now with my Crossfit training, with no regrets! However, I am quite enjoying my departure from training and the opportunities it has given me. I also recognize the benefits of that hard training and am attempting to apply that on all levels. It’s always in flux. We are always in flux! So I’m right where I need to be. (Presently outside soaking up the morning air). After your kiddos get back to school, maybe we can pick a day to train together? Lifting, gymnastics …whatever! With others is great too! Cheers my friend! See you soon!

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