The most interesting, paradoxical feeling…

Understanding I have the ability to hurt people, and understanding why I choose not to.

Using my body to inflict harm does not make me feel “good”, and yet

I practice regularly, honing my skill set, dying a bit myself each time

a choke overwhelms me or a limb becomes hopelessly entangled.

The most interesting, paradoxical feeling…

Understanding I value autonomy and freedom, and understanding someone else’s actions do not affect me unless I allow them to.

Seeking adventures, exploring boundaries, enjoying new experiences can all be rewarding and unsettling at the same time

And yet, I practice regularly and strongly encourage those people around me to step out of their comfort zone.

The most interesting and paradoxical feeling…

Understanding judgement for myself or for others doesn’t produce positive results. Understanding choices aren’t ever zero sum equations.

Simplicity and complexity are the balance I think of and I try to recognize each side without trying to control it.

Over-thinking is a waste of time and energy, don’t dwell in the past.