The downs always come back up

on the day or hour or week

finding my rhythm is the trick

finding the trick to help me

control my rhythm

control isn’t what I want

but oddly, it is what i’m always

working on

checking my impulse

talking myself down

holding on to what I’ve got

until i decide its no longer

what I want.

I can feel the difference now

and I’m calling the shots

more often, I’m deciding to decide

i can sometimes hear that other voice

and I can sometimes take the easy way

but I don’t.

I’m finding the things I’m looking for.

I’m saying the words I mean.

I’m doing stuff that brings me joy

i’m living the life I choose.