The downs always come back up
on the day or hour or week
finding my rhythm is the trick
finding the trick to help me
control my rhythm
control isn’t what I want
but oddly, it is what i’m always
working on
checking my impulse
talking myself down
holding on to what I’ve got
until i decide its no longer
what I want.
I can feel the difference now
and I’m calling the shots
more often, I’m deciding to decide
i can sometimes hear that other voice
and I can sometimes take the easy way
but I don’t.
I’m finding the things I’m looking for.
I’m saying the words I mean.
I’m doing stuff that brings me joy
i’m living the life I choose.