Us Few

What we are trying to achieve has changed. A few people are remembering the value of hard work and personal intent. A few people are working to understand a better way, working to find others who understand, working to turn the tide.

Society is beginning to understand the calamity of living in a culture like this. We are beginning to understand the malady of living in a culture like this. Us few are recognizing the lack of rational though, the lack of rational effort, the lack of intention and direction.

Our culture has convinced us we need to be individuals, but robs us of the tools necessary to take care of ourselves. the dominant paradigm is purposefully unaware. distracted, medicated, relatively ignorant, generally avoiding challenges and hard work.

All the study’s have shown…all the research indicates…all the warning labels scream at us…and most of us can’t be bothered to make a decision and commit to action.

 

Change to stay the same

What am I trying to prove? Nothing.

What am I trying to achieve? Nothing.

What am I trying to avoid? Nothing.

What am I trying to remember? Nothing.

What am I trying to keep? Nothing.

What am I trying to escape? Nothing.

What am I trying to…

 

The longer I practice these ideas,

simplicity, frugality, dissent, non-conformity, physicality, isolation,

the more I realize the only right way

is the way that works for you.

The practice of evolution takes to long,

the practice of adaptation happens now.

Stop talking about what can be better

start working toward what can be better

Stop living a life that kills your soul,

make the choice, take the chance,

love to fail, learn to grow

What

what I’m finding now is my way back

what I’m find now is a voice, no longer choked back by smoke.

 

what I’m learning now is what I want, I must earn.

what I’m learning now is that I can define truth and what it means for me.

 

what I’m seeing now is a clarity I’ve longed for, but couldn’t achieve.

what I’m working for now is the freedom to do the work I feel called to do.

 

what I’m looking for is authenticity, from myself as much as from you.

what I’m looking for is a release from this meatsuit, transcendence.

 

what I’m feeling is open and vulnerable

what I’m feeling is my feelings

what I’m feeling is what its like to be you.

 

what I know is not very much

what I know is not enough

 

what I’m talking about is worth listening to

what I’m saying is all stuff that’s been said before.

 

what I’m here for is everything you’ve got.

 

 

 

AntiThesis

Seeing new faces intrigues me and piques my curiosity regarding the human condition

Seeing new places intrigues me and reminds me how sheltered I am in my little corner of the Universe.

Staring in to someone else’s eyes wondering how they let themselves go so far down that dark road of self-destruction, brings sadness in to my soul.

I wonder who hurt them, I wonder who told them they were worthless, I wonder who told them they didn’t deserve better.

Self-destruction happens at different speeds, the ones taking it slow baffle me the most.

Just a little bit worse every day is the antithesis of how I exist and witnessing this ignites and quiet, subtle rage inside me.

This burning is the fire I’ll use to purify myself, the fire I’ll use to destroy the weakest parts of me, the fire that will light a candle to guide others back to the way we used to be.

Thicker skin, better posture, tighter waistline, less excuses. Simple focus, driven and disciplined, eager and willing to push themselves, test their limits, finding their center, crushing the ego beneath the desire to transform, reach higher and EVOLVE.

These Days

these days I find myself taking less

chances and doubling down on a sure bet

 

These days I find myself thinking too

much about what needs remembering

 

these days I’m not setting goals, but I’m

still shooting my shot

 

These days I’m not making plans but

I’m still taking steps on The Path

 

these days I’m figuring out what I

care about and what to leave behind

 

these days I’m remembering to warm up

and I’m always taking time to cool down

 

these days I’m making eye contact

and listening like I mean it

 

these days I’m not looking as hard

but I seem to be finding everything I want.

Novelty

chasing novelty never gets old.

I’ll try anything once, and then again,

as long as its different that before.

I’ll try anything I haven’t done with anyone I haven’t done it with before.

I find myself nonplussed by the new and titillating.

I find myself sitting back and twiddling my thumbs as all the colors change around.

As the world swirls and twirls in front of my face only pausing when I choose to breathe, only stopping when I find the thing I want, only holding on for this moment or that moment, never grasping, never holding on loosely, but gracefully cradling the preciousness of whatever is happening now, trying desperately to feel connected to the cosmos, connected to the chaos, connected to the constant change that is the only truth I believe, the only force I know strong enough to make me feel, strong enough to make me questions if its all worth it, strong enough to drive me forward, one moment at a time, dying to myself, while still living the most possible, best possible life.